This is meant for me

All are saying that 2 years of gap in the studies will make my chances really bleak to get in where I want to but i want to ask that does hard work never pays off?. So what if there will be 2 years of gap ? Will the mistakes made in past make me suffer in future? Then some say this is not what is meant for me, I need to find what’s there for me as I am not able to achieve it. But I want to ask them if it wasn’t meant for me then why was I introduced to this? This was never something that i  had planned, I just stumbled upon this and started working for this. And even if this is not meant to me then how to find what is meant for me? What if I work really hard for it like really hard and get 100 %, will the sins made in past waste the hard work of my present? Will it?

Whatever all say I don’t care. All I know is hard work does pay back sooner or later. I know that I haven’t wasted these two years. These two years played a really important role in my personal development.  I have learned a lot in these two years. And as it is said, “When you want something, the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it “. I will do my sort of work and will see hard work pays off or not.

 

The loss is done

In professional life, I won’t give up because I need to be successful in life. When the right time will be I will get what’s there for me but what about the people whom I disappointed, what about my lost confidence, what about the people I am going to lose because of this. We always wait for the right time to do something, to say something but the reality is that right time never comes. Time never waits for anyone. It just flies away. When I had time and I invested that time on some people but those people turned out fake.But now when there are right people, time is not right.Even it’s not only about the time it’s about them, whether they deserve you or not? I feel they deserve better than me as I feel I am not worth for them, I can’t stand by them. We regret our past for choosing wrong people and I think I will regret in future because the loss is done.But then again a ray of hope that what is meant for me will be mine. Apart from loosing professionally and people there is a loss in yourself also because when you fail a part of you is not allowing you to give up and there is another part of you where the fear of failing never goes away. Instead of seeing positive in everything you start anticipating negativity also before even starting.If it would have been only about you, you could handle situations but it is about family, money, time, friends and every other thing that you had put on stake just to achieve one thing.At the end, you don’t have any option other than moving on because it’s about your loved ones.You have to stand up and fight for the sake of the family, your future. But there is also one reality which states that THE LOSS IS DONE AT BOTH PERSONAL AND PROFESSIONAL LEVEL even if we achieve that thing later on.

New beginning towards old goals

Two days passed since the results are out but here I am ready to start again. Setbacks are painful when you had worked really hard for something and you don’t get it but you know what setbacks are motivating when you don’t want to quit. And Iwon’t quit because this is my dream and I will be the one who is going to decide where I would stop.

I know there is a lot to improve. I know I am weak at verbal, I know I didn’t give the best in other two. So, here I am to improve, to remove every weakness of mine, to give my best shot one last time. I know it won’t be easy. I know there will be many obstacles but I promise I won’t stop until I achieve it. I won’t stop until these weakness are turned into my strengths. This is not a race to ace what I haven’t achieved, this is a race to be better than me, to be different me, to be what I want to. Goals are same but attitude will be changed. I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN THIS TIME BECAUSE THIS IS MY DREAM.